| Its not fair. This gorgeous, sweet, young boy didn't even get a chance... to graduate from college, to have an adult job, to get married and have babies....with me.... He didn't get to fully live. They're both pleading 'not guilty' to muder (Tim and Emily). I guess Tim says that he only robbed them... didn't shoot or even bring a gun. I just wish that I could talk to them. Wish that I could show them. They took my life from me. All I have left is a box full of memories and a broken heart. I wish I could make them see what they did to me and to Tyler's family and friends... I wish they had to hurt like we do. |
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When you're dreaming with a broken heart...
The waking up is the hardest part...
You roll outta bed and down on your knees...
And for the moment you can hardly breathe...
Wondering "Was he really here?
Is he standing in my room?"
No he's not.....
'Cause he's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
When you're dreaming with a broken heart...
The giving up is the hardest part...
He takes you in with his crying eyes...
Then all at once you have to say goodbye.
Wondering "Could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?"
No he can't.....
'Cause he's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hands
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Would you get them if I did?
No you won't.....
'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
When you're dreaming with a broken heart...
The waking up is the hardest part....
I miss you Ty......
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| Gravity is working against me. And gravity wants to bring me down. 
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| I want you to see
I need something more
Than you gave me for... I want you to burn.
I want you to steal.
I want you to bleed
And see how it feels.
I want you to beg.
I want you to crawl,
Give more than you take
And smile through it all. And know that everything I do...
I do it for you. |
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| for a very long time, ive promised myself that i would never become my parents. not that i have the worst parents ever (i dont) but they made some mistakes i need to learn from.... but ive realized that i am them already. im a penny pincher whether or not i have money (and right now im in huge debt.... which only makes me more like them). im constantly worrying about it because i owe so much to both parents and i never have enough of it. im sure you're thinking, 'you probably just blow it on a lot of crap', but no, i dont. i put 95% of my money in my gas tank, 3% towards food and the other 2% to my parental debt. im only going farther and farther in the hole each month that i dont pay them because i dont have enough!! i somehow end up with a shitty job or an important event comes up (prom... homecoming... best friends birthday...) and i cant give them as much as i want. as a kid, i always heard arguments about money and my parents are even MORE anal about it now and its very sad to realize that i have become them. i count down the days to may paycheck, even if its 13. (right now, its 8.) but the majority will go to my greedy gas tank and i will still be praying for more to give my parents. foot.
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